The Box

Im not going make this too hard but Im not going to make this at all closes to easy.

I don't say your name out loud because once I do I get a chill . . like a warning sign NOT to say it

I'm not going to say my goals out loud because once I do someone will try to stop me

I'm having trouble getting my mind wrapped around your viewpoint but maybe thats just because Im stuck far away from your box

Why don't you let me come in ? I promise I won't destroy everything.

Maybe my mind has a forcefield around it so I'm incapable of even letting myself touch your box ?

ok well I'll keep writing until somebody comes along. . then tell them I don't have the time for Boxes I'm busy Writing.

My mind is so complex, many people don't understand my thoughts and WHY i do what i do, so they say I'm "silly" . . . analyze what I say and you'll realize Im warning you, my pure thoughts are deadly and meant to kill the human brain, thats the beauty of being a Robot.

Best Friends

What does a friendship mean to you ? somebody yer cool with, you have their back if you guyz are really that close ? Someone you can talk things over with, even if its the most horrible thing in the world ? . . .. yea . ..well I dont have that many "Friends" in my lifetime lal. Theirs people I think are horribly awesome and If they need my help I'll help them. But My 2 BESTFRIENDS Starr and Breanna (Bri ILY 2 ! nd IMY HARD!) are more like . . sisters. . they don't know each other so it's basically ones my sister on my moms side and the others my sister on my dads side lal. BUT YEA anyways. If I make a promise to them, or tell them I won't do something, I don't do it; and if I do do it (which is hardly ever) I feel terrible. Well . . .rite about now . .I not only broke a promise to Starr "FOR STARR !" I said. . .but I broke a promise to myself. . .and I want to absolutly die. . . .don't worry about what it was . .It wasmt bad . .I just said I wouldn't do it .. .and I feel like theres absolutly no hope on this planet for me to ever forgive myself, like I've lied to myself before but that was a luke warm hour ago so . . .yea . . .but If your in the process of battling between a Paradox . . It's real hard to make the right decision when you want to do both just as equally as bad .. . . anywho . . now I have to tell her that I drank sooooo much pepsi and feel terrible. .knowing that I've been wanting to cut back since forever and I've been doing good so starr: "dude you got a whole box of pepsi . .don't drink it all . . . please ? for me ?" me: "FOR STARR ! . .I don't even want to drink it anyways" and I do good until the last 10 mins before bed and I attack the whole box and had like . . . 7 pepsi's ! . . .I want to die . . . so much fer being a virtuous woman in the making . .i can't even keep my own promises =[

Valentines Day

Ok . . so i havent believed in valentines day since ????????????? getting out of that whole  . . .give out th little kards to the whole klassroom kuz thats what the teacher says to do phase lal . .and i didnt start speaking against it until 8th grade when my mom gawt me this kewl "valentines day stinks" shirt nd sum little stoopid girl made a komment about it sayin "yer just mad kuz yuu dnt have a valentine" or sum stoopid ish like that nd i just looked at her like "hoe im jazzybel !" lawb 

But no seriously tho . . .what makes people go coocoo for apple jacks on valentines day ?? . .is it the fact that MAYBE they'll FINALLY get some vage action frm this girl they feelin if the go all out fer her ? [which izz pretty sad . . ] or izz it the whole . . .yuu love them so yuu wanna make it a special day fer them . . .well mr and/or ms give me a designated day to do sumthing beautiful fer my "sweetheart" . . .yer waisting yer time . . .yess . . .yer pouring good chocolate milk into the pool thinkin yuu gone swim and drink at the same time when in reality yer jus eventually gon kome out sour smelling nd gross . .nd idk if that made since . .but its th only phrase that was stukk in my head.

Soooo . .yesterday was SATURDAY ! [ : yay ! . .and all SATURDAY ! i read a 418 page book that was absolutley wonderful [ : . . iiiiiiim guessing yuu prolly . . .wasted yer time . . .

dude as im typing this . . .anything that doesnt help yuu move forward in life. bring yuu kloser to God. or provides an impact on this world. . .iz a waste of time . .. . .with alot of disklaimers to that statement ima just be done with this blog

<$ JazzyBel  

Kate Micucci

So if you've ever seen the movie "Lower Learning" or seen the newest episode of Scrubs you would notice this girl with this really kewl sounding voice that is super awesome !. Her names Kate Micucci and she also sings with this other girl named Riki and together they make Garfunkel and Oats and their musikk izz really great  . . .I fell in deep like with these girls and I think yall kan too . .but if yuu dnt im nawt trippin . .

anywayz !! this girl plays th Ukulele and piano. she's really pretty and draws really swell. 

^Yea her drawings are awesome ^

I guess thatz it yo =]

Wisdom and Loving God

My personal thoughts on wisdom is quite simple.  once we stop thinkN with th logikk of th world we kan recieve th wisdom of God. I'm really trying to bekome a better person and establish a really really really klose relationship with God. I've kome to realize (a long time ago but im just posting it) that yuu KANNOT have or maintain a great relationship with any human on this earth if yuu dont have a great relationship with God. I feel like if I dnt Love God I knt Love myself, nd if I dnt love myself I knt love others. Gods love is aktually th best love there ever will be bekause he iz within every one of us rather we believe in him or not, i mean, we waz made in his image . . he aktually shld be in our hearts, usually th times when I feel empty are th times that I dnt talk to God . . . He's Literally th filling of every hole in your soul . . well . .that's th way I feel about it . .